for you people who are thinking of sending you stuff back through cargo...you might wanna ask someone to pick ur stuff for you.. mind me,..its not an easy job:p..
was in the hospital for a day n a half:P..in between final days of co-ass and the ridiculously terrifying dermatology exam..
what was i to think but to hope that my hopes wont shetter in front of me like the drips of plabottle natrium and metronidazole i had to take.. ceitt.. cakap mcm sakit trok kan..but i was actually diagnosed with amoebiasis.. its a parasite infection... which i dont know where i got it from but seriously.. it's no fun at all!!
logically, it's a feco-oral transmission parasite.. which by means.. its either i got it from some 'sungai', polluted water or someone who i bought food from.. didnt really wash their hand properly after they poopoo!!.. i hope that wasnt the case..cause if it is.. yakssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
huhuuu..but fortunately, i could get out of the hospital..just in time to take my last exam and try to pass it..
the few last weeks were very stressful.. the fact that Pak Agus gave me an excemption to try and pass this exam,..n ignore the dateline to finalised our result was a tremendous help.. without him n Allah s.w.t. i dont think i could make it.. my exam result came out at 9.30am, 21st dec,.. and the board meeting was at 10am!! praise to God for without Him i could not have gotten the oppportunity to join the graduation on 6th january..
and thanks to all the friends in this group..eventhough there were some tense between us, but we got trough it and went through the exam together..
obviously, my family esp my dad had been a great support.. nadya, gurvin, fatima, mei n ayunni.. qayyum, fai, sheen, nina, prema n nesa!!!
thanks you people!!!
xoxoxo
lalalalaaa..time flows without us noticing the small n
important things that we missed. This is the first event that i went with my
family after i came back from indon..huhuhuu.. my dad is soooo old dy:p.. that
makes me silver-minus-one:p.. huhuhuuu..it was great..getting acknowledge by my
dad and getting his respect as well as his trust..im gonna cherish it
forever..it was located at pwtc,KL.. all the doctors who graduated
with my dad were there.. im very proud of him and somehow their achievements got
to me.. in a way that i couldnt actually describe.. i felt a rush of hope and
ambition flowing through my veins as i discovered everyone's post by now.. they
are all well-known doctors and had achieve so many great things and findings.. i
am so proud to be calling them Malaysians' doctors:)..p/s:and i hope that one day i would be practicing under
them:)..xoxoxo
o how i long for this...llalalaaa.. annoying noises of ayud and humayraa.. the laziest cat u can ever find.. my sweet n sourly bed, my storming 'bibik', the roars from Zoo Negara waking me up in the morning, my dad pissing me off now and then with his synical jokes about me not being a good muslim, my mom with her gadgets..ahhhh.. my home:)
it was last thursday when i realised that everyone around me is no longer here... it makes me sad thinking of the days which i'm gonna go trough alone..well, i can be a loner..but sometimes i need my friends and their comforting words.. having noone around really makes me feel how bless i am when they were there for me...thnx u guys:)..
so..another 2 months before i can go home.. be around people whom i love and cherish.. suddenly a devastating news came upon me.. well,..it seems that for some reason,..i wont be able to get my certificate until march/april.. god,please help me go tru these dissappointing days.. i am crushed.. into a million pieces.. i cant breath and suddenly i feel like fainting.. i saw lights and clouds and all of a sudden my mind was blank..i dont know y..i just couldnt think..
there's an ent exam next week.. i'm thinking of studying but once i sat in front of my table.. opened my book.. i couldnt help but to stare endlessly to nothing!!!.. is that what my future holdsss??? ohhhhhhh,... what would my mom say if she's still here with me? i've never been very close to her when i was a child..but it seems that after an incident..she changed and we became closer.. but it didnt stay long.. cause God loves her more to let her stay in this hipocrite world!!.. just when i tot i finally felt her love.. she had to go..
i am not good dealing with problems.. as i tend to cry n cry n cry.. n i'll start thinking about my mom and all the things that i've done in the past to deserve this.. everything flashes right in front of me.. i cant sleep..i cant think..i cant enjoy my food.. everything seems tasteless and flat..
if i could live in the past..i'd choose my high school years.. right before spm.. when i could change everything.. from there.. my life could actually turn differently..
ohh..how i wish.. but it'll always stay a dream.. hope..








