can't stop
i was singing to ne-yo's beat when it occurs to me how my life will b without him,.. the one who i'd come home on d weekends for.. it has been sometime since i fell in love,.. v hooked up after i broke up with my ex.. he was always there for me.. listening, with patience,.. d shoulder i cried on for all this time.. i cant believe tht it is over..
i wouldnt say its his fault neither would i say its mine.. maybe the love just fades,.. maybe v just got tired of each other. i am too pushy.am i? how annoying am i? does it really takes people a whole year to know the other person.. well enuff to leave them? wat's wrong with us? i just dont think that he knows me at all.. after all this years together,..
there was fun.. most of them i'd say wen v r staying together.. if u know what i mean.. but there r also grieves, regrets, motionless pain..
v had our issues, v got tru them.. n v became stronger.. i guess wen u r just not meant to be,. u shud leave tht person and dont live in d past.. yeah.. i got it.. but its hard for me to do it.. i cant just let it go.. still, i want to.. every now and then i kept thinking how stupid i am.. i was the one who made this decision but yet i cant live with it.. i am so weak.. i need someone to be with me..
to think of it,..maybe cos im here too long.. too many stressful events, too many people who im stuck with,.. too many work and responsibilities, which i cant run from.. but take my words.. if i could RUN away,..i would.. without hesitations.. i wont hav to think twice..
i just want my life back..
