huhuuu..a lot has happened over the past one year,..im married and expecting, life in the hospital has always been miserable,.. not that i can hope for it to change,.. this will be my life routine,.. baby and patients and household,..
i cant deny that financially it has been better.. hafidz is getting his contract extended and we need not have to worry about him not having a job for some time.. accumulatively, we actually made a lot! for a small household,.. but still i dont know where did all the money disappeared:p..
we r still waiting to get our new house.. lawyer fees and renovation will be the first thing in our mind to settle in 2011:)..
then there's maid employment and baby stuff,.. ahakss..
and also we're trying to save for a new toyota wish/caldina?? ahaksss.. just see.. we may not get the money so soon,.. there's also hubby trying to enter a course which enable him to get a welding degree in 5 days.. by SIRIM which will cost us around 10k!!
alamak... this means lots of OverTime for him and oncall and Locums for me:p... mcm aku larat jer..
ive been married for 10 months,.. this is toooooooooooooo muuuuuuuuuuuuccchhhh!!
naaaa,.. we can survive this.. :)
so if people ask me what's my new year's resolution.. i'll be so conflicted,.. between is it about me or my family??? or maybe i have tonnes of resolutions which i hope to archieved in 2011!!
that could be it:)hehehheeee..
i really hope it's true
i hope its real
i hope im becoming one
i just hope i wont get disappointed
i hope of being a good one
i hope i can teach him everything
i hope i can see him live
i really hope i could have him..
i dont mind if it hurts
i will cherish him forever
i want it to complete..
but sometimes hoping is not enough
sometimes we just got tired
and he might just slipped away
and we might just lose him
but i really hope..
really really hope that
i will be with him
and i can hold him
i could love him
and see him grow
...
but i can just hope..~~
i hope its real
i hope im becoming one
i just hope i wont get disappointed
i hope of being a good one
i hope i can teach him everything
i hope i can see him live
i really hope i could have him..
i dont mind if it hurts
i will cherish him forever
i want it to complete..
but sometimes hoping is not enough
sometimes we just got tired
and he might just slipped away
and we might just lose him
but i really hope..
really really hope that
i will be with him
and i can hold him
i could love him
and see him grow
...
but i can just hope..~~
life have changed since we were married..the day that you took me into your life, when u swore in front of our family and you took my hands from my dad.. i have been blessed with the happiness and sorrows living as a couple. No one told me that it will be this hard, but I made my mind to be with you and cherish you forever, and that's what i'm going to do. i remembered our earlier months together, we had overcame our differences, being under the same roof is not that simple, it's not even close like wen we fell in love.. marriage means tied to our spouse.. that was what i felt.. for a while.. but then i realized i had learned to live with you. without you means i'm not myself anymore.. the funs of arguing with you, winning, seeing ur face when you disagree, trying to not let you down, trying to be the best wife in this lost world.. you.. have shown me wat its like to share, to sacrifice, to live as a couple, to clean our home.. especially... i really3x love you... nothing in this world will change how i feel bout u..muahhhsss xoxo shiqin
i've always imagine tht marriage is beyond happiness..its eternity of worship and sacrifices.. which leads to eternal love and tremendous laughters..
but i was wrong..
its not that simple..
of course i never felt left out when everyday im the one who's leaving him for work and attending my patients nowadays have been my priority,.,
i would go and check on them even when i am not on call..
i would sit and talk to them just to make sure they're ok
but i didnt realize tht i never did the same to my husband...
this is an abondenment case:p..
if it was.. i dont mind to be blamed.
its a holiday..in malacca..
of course i hav to work..
when he fetch me back.. he told me that he have to work..
i screamed and i yelled.. and i went nuisance..for a while
saying stuff that i should just keep in my mind..
then he went off to work..
there are words tht i wish i could take back..
cause i want u to know that's me when i want u badly..
not when i want u away...
hours will be longer wthout u around:(
the big day is coming but im not sure if i am ready for it..huhuuu.. i have to go for induction from 2-5th feb.. but hopefully i wont have to start immediately after.. whatever it is, i am sure that i can try to get an excuse for a day to go to MY OWN WEDDING!! hahaaa..
hrmm.. what preparation has been done? id say,..my baju nikah is ready.. and we just got hafidz's baju melayu to go along with my purple baju kurung:p..
the forms are all filled up, just waiting to get an approval from JAIS.. which is ready from last friday..i was just too lazy to get it.. huhuhuuuu.. other than that.. i'll only have to worry about wer im getting posted to and when i have to start..
oh ya.. there are two more letters from mmc and spa that i havent got..lalallaaaa..
i called the person in charge.. as they assure me that there wont be any problem.. well,..my soul is in peace now:p..
huhuhuuuu.. kawen..keje.. pregnant????..we'll see..
xoxoxo
shiqin
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