it was last thursday when i realised that everyone around me is no longer here... it makes me sad thinking of the days which i'm gonna go trough alone..well, i can be a loner..but sometimes i need my friends and their comforting words.. having noone around really makes me feel how bless i am when they were there for me...thnx u guys:)..
so..another 2 months before i can go home.. be around people whom i love and cherish.. suddenly a devastating news came upon me.. well,..it seems that for some reason,..i wont be able to get my certificate until march/april.. god,please help me go tru these dissappointing days.. i am crushed.. into a million pieces.. i cant breath and suddenly i feel like fainting.. i saw lights and clouds and all of a sudden my mind was blank..i dont know y..i just couldnt think..
there's an ent exam next week.. i'm thinking of studying but once i sat in front of my table.. opened my book.. i couldnt help but to stare endlessly to nothing!!!.. is that what my future holdsss??? ohhhhhhh,... what would my mom say if she's still here with me? i've never been very close to her when i was a child..but it seems that after an incident..she changed and we became closer.. but it didnt stay long.. cause God loves her more to let her stay in this hipocrite world!!.. just when i tot i finally felt her love.. she had to go..
i am not good dealing with problems.. as i tend to cry n cry n cry.. n i'll start thinking about my mom and all the things that i've done in the past to deserve this.. everything flashes right in front of me.. i cant sleep..i cant think..i cant enjoy my food.. everything seems tasteless and flat..
if i could live in the past..i'd choose my high school years.. right before spm.. when i could change everything.. from there.. my life could actually turn differently..
ohh..how i wish.. but it'll always stay a dream.. hope..
after 10 days of holidays,..i finally have to step back into reality and try to enjoy my life as a meds-practical-observant...lalalalaaa..masuk klinik,usha2 and blah:p.. but the holidays were really enjoying and i had great fun with my famillies and friends.. balik kampung 2 nights.. seeing the whole Omarians with their best looks on pagi raya..damn.. makes me feel like i dont wanna leave kampung.. hohooooo..
but wat can i do..terpaksa la makcik balik Indons and lepak for another 3 months here.. when will my time come..nak balik and menetap in KL balik...leleleleleeee..
alaaa.. but i didnt hav d chance to meet kak cik baya,tok, kak cik dila, anak arwah mak iti, kakak2 d kliniks and my frens..
xpe...xpe.. once im finished, i'll make sure i drive all around ur houses and menyusahkan u all with dinner, supper and breakfast.. erkk.. is that in the right order...kuangkuangkuang.. terpaksa stay from dinner till breakfast:p..lalalallaaaaa...
cant waitttt
cant waiitttt
muahhhhssss
xoxoxoxo
love,
shiqin
haaa... my second friend just got married last weekend... a sweet dentist...sighhh
huhuhu... gile bunguk..masa nak pegi kenduri dia..lupe nak tengok kad tuh..alamat rumah ke dewan.. maklumlah..nowadays semua org nak kawen kat dewan je..hehehe..
it was a small but sweet wedding.. pelamin cantiks gilers... gile sweetsss.. buat sendiri ke.. huhu..i met 2 of my highschool frens.. yg sorg tuh came with her hubby and anak.. ceittt...
huhuhu..xpe..xpe..
but it was nice meeting everyone there... cheerios.. have a happy life, dear friend..
xoxo
muahhsss
wakakkakaka... alot in life has changed.. i lost a few yet i gained so many..:P.. i was in Msia for a longgg longgg loooonnngggg leave because i was ill:(.. after i came back..i was posted around yogya:P.. ngeh ngeh ngeh.. i bet u missed me and my blog kan..kannn.. :).. well, i am having difficulties cause im always homesick.. banyak keje and org2 gile wat kepala makin bingit.. ahahahha.. this week im so free.. i'll only be attending clinic once this week,..mati kutu.. hari2 cek tiket price to go home..ayah will surely cabuk me..:P..
mua misss mi casa!!!!!!! so very much:P..
p/s:v shud go for dinner some days.. nice seeing u the other day:P..happy K3M!!!
