i cant believe that it has been 19 days since my baby left a scar under my belly:p.. apart from the weight gain and baby kicking every 3 mins,..i actually miss being pregnant,..
while being pregnant make my nights sleepless with all the pain and movements,.. the part after that is scarier.. now my baby wakes up every 1230mn, 230am, 330am and 430am,..ahaksss..
its his routine...
well,.. one of the midwives told me that once the baby has adapted with the "outside world" timing, he will eventually wakes more often in daylight and sleeps most off the time at night,..
im here to tell you that it is not entirely true!! not true at all,.. he just loves to wake up when his father is in deeeeep sleeeppp and spends the entire night with mumbling and doing his cute smile,.which sometimes.. at seldom occasion mommy dont find it cute at all...hahhaaa..that is when mommy fell asleep..
im giving breastfeeding,..it was convenience for awhile..after baby ammar took almost 30-45 mins to suckle.. uhukss.. n mommy was left with no more hours of sleep:(..
but mommy never forgets about papa,..mommy always make sure to wake him up to change your diaper,ammar:p..
mommy loves you,..baby muhammad ammar safwan bin muhammad hafidz
my baby is now 30weeks and 3 days of gestational age,..cant wait to have him in our lives.. hurmmm..apart from the pain of quickening and movements his making in my belly,.. i'd rather not feel it as he is sooooo active,..
counting weeks and days for my beloved husband to complete his job in kulim,..so that i wont be at home alone,..
its scary , also lonely and sometimes tiring to be doing everything alone..
i just feels like sleeping and letting the days pass by as quick as possible!!
ahaksss,.. nothing much i can do when im thinking of him...reallllyyyy..reallllyy misssss him!!
xoxo
huhuuu..a lot has happened over the past one year,..im married and expecting, life in the hospital has always been miserable,.. not that i can hope for it to change,.. this will be my life routine,.. baby and patients and household,..
i cant deny that financially it has been better.. hafidz is getting his contract extended and we need not have to worry about him not having a job for some time.. accumulatively, we actually made a lot! for a small household,.. but still i dont know where did all the money disappeared:p..
we r still waiting to get our new house.. lawyer fees and renovation will be the first thing in our mind to settle in 2011:)..
then there's maid employment and baby stuff,.. ahakss..
and also we're trying to save for a new toyota wish/caldina?? ahaksss.. just see.. we may not get the money so soon,.. there's also hubby trying to enter a course which enable him to get a welding degree in 5 days.. by SIRIM which will cost us around 10k!!
alamak... this means lots of OverTime for him and oncall and Locums for me:p... mcm aku larat jer..
ive been married for 10 months,.. this is toooooooooooooo muuuuuuuuuuuuccchhhh!!
naaaa,.. we can survive this.. :)
so if people ask me what's my new year's resolution.. i'll be so conflicted,.. between is it about me or my family??? or maybe i have tonnes of resolutions which i hope to archieved in 2011!!
that could be it:)hehehheeee..
i hope its real
i hope im becoming one
i just hope i wont get disappointed
i hope of being a good one
i hope i can teach him everything
i hope i can see him live
i really hope i could have him..
i dont mind if it hurts
i will cherish him forever
i want it to complete..
but sometimes hoping is not enough
sometimes we just got tired
and he might just slipped away
and we might just lose him
but i really hope..
really really hope that
i will be with him
and i can hold him
i could love him
and see him grow
...
but i can just hope..~~
life have changed since we were married..the day that you took me into your life, when u swore in front of our family and you took my hands from my dad.. i have been blessed with the happiness and sorrows living as a couple. No one told me that it will be this hard, but I made my mind to be with you and cherish you forever, and that's what i'm going to do. i remembered our earlier months together, we had overcame our differences, being under the same roof is not that simple, it's not even close like wen we fell in love.. marriage means tied to our spouse.. that was what i felt.. for a while.. but then i realized i had learned to live with you. without you means i'm not myself anymore.. the funs of arguing with you, winning, seeing ur face when you disagree, trying to not let you down, trying to be the best wife in this lost world.. you.. have shown me wat its like to share, to sacrifice, to live as a couple, to clean our home.. especially... i really3x love you... nothing in this world will change how i feel bout u..muahhhsss xoxo shiqin
