life have changed since we were married..the day that you took me into your life, when u swore in front of our family and you took my hands from my dad.. i have been blessed with the happiness and sorrows living as a couple. No one told me that it will be this hard, but I made my mind to be with you and cherish you forever, and that's what i'm going to do. i remembered our earlier months together, we had overcame our differences, being under the same roof is not that simple, it's not even close like wen we fell in love.. marriage means tied to our spouse.. that was what i felt.. for a while.. but then i realized i had learned to live with you. without you means i'm not myself anymore.. the funs of arguing with you, winning, seeing ur face when you disagree, trying to not let you down, trying to be the best wife in this lost world.. you.. have shown me wat its like to share, to sacrifice, to live as a couple, to clean our home.. especially... i really3x love you... nothing in this world will change how i feel bout u..muahhhsss xoxo shiqin
i've always imagine tht marriage is beyond happiness..its eternity of worship and sacrifices.. which leads to eternal love and tremendous laughters..
but i was wrong..
its not that simple..
of course i never felt left out when everyday im the one who's leaving him for work and attending my patients nowadays have been my priority,.,
i would go and check on them even when i am not on call..
i would sit and talk to them just to make sure they're ok
but i didnt realize tht i never did the same to my husband...
this is an abondenment case:p..
if it was.. i dont mind to be blamed.
its a holiday..in malacca..
of course i hav to work..
when he fetch me back.. he told me that he have to work..
i screamed and i yelled.. and i went nuisance..for a while
saying stuff that i should just keep in my mind..
then he went off to work..
there are words tht i wish i could take back..
cause i want u to know that's me when i want u badly..
not when i want u away...
hours will be longer wthout u around:(
the big day is coming but im not sure if i am ready for it..huhuuu.. i have to go for induction from 2-5th feb.. but hopefully i wont have to start immediately after.. whatever it is, i am sure that i can try to get an excuse for a day to go to MY OWN WEDDING!! hahaaa..
hrmm.. what preparation has been done? id say,..my baju nikah is ready.. and we just got hafidz's baju melayu to go along with my purple baju kurung:p..
the forms are all filled up, just waiting to get an approval from JAIS.. which is ready from last friday..i was just too lazy to get it.. huhuhuuuu.. other than that.. i'll only have to worry about wer im getting posted to and when i have to start..
oh ya.. there are two more letters from mmc and spa that i havent got..lalallaaaa..
i called the person in charge.. as they assure me that there wont be any problem.. well,..my soul is in peace now:p..
huhuhuuuu.. kawen..keje.. pregnant????..we'll see..
xoxoxo
shiqin
I wished upon a star one night
Shining brightly above me
I wished upon a four-leaf clover
Growing underneath a tree
Each year in June I wished upon a candle glowing bright
I wished upon each shooting star that passed me in the night
I blew away a fallen lash
I whispered in a prayer
That God would send my true love home
For me to love and care
With eyes the color of the sea
And a smile ear to ear
He’d hold me in his arms
And defend from all I fear
A knight in shining armor is the man he’d try to be
And every evening after work he’d come home to be with me
I wished for someone to grow old with and walk with hand in hand
And today my dreams come true, I can call him my husband.
should i get marry???
i want to..
but the responsibility..
n the loyalty..
can i do it?
i've always been too acquainted with my family..
could i accept other people's family and their nature??
i dont knowwwwwwwwww...
its coming too fast..
my heart's beating so fast..
i cant think..
what will it be like after the marriage..
is it too soon??
can he take care of me?
do i really wanna b with him???
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